I'm So Tired

I'm so tired!  I'm tired of wiping snotty noses that never seem to stop running.  I'm tired of picking up the forth outfit that Ally Rae has put on then taken off and slung down the hall, up the bed, and in the crib.  As if we don't have enough laundry with six people in the house.  I'm tired of trying to be patient and nice when I've asked Charles-Allen for the upteenth time to finish his jobs and resist the urge to do it myself because heaven knows it would be done much quicker and look better.  I'm mean really, is it all that bad if he grows up to be a lazy housekeeper?  Is it too much to ask that he marry a sweet little girl that lives for cleaning the house?  Not that I've ever met one, but still it could happen.  I'm tired of my sweet Emmy's ailments that she conjers up in her head and needs constant reassurance that she's not developing a sever life threatening illness. She so gets this from my mom's side of the family.  For three days now I've had to explain to her why she can't go to school with crutches because her knee hurts.  She's such a mess.  And I'm tired of the guilt that comes with being tired, which just makes me more tired.  It's a vicious cycle that sets in in January and doesn't seem to go away until mid-March.  It's cold so we can't go out and with the swine flu we can't go in.  We can only stay home and try to endure. What's a poor haggered mom to do?     It's not that I'm tired of my kids, I'm not, I'm just tired of  all the work that comes with parenting.  Can I hire someone to parent my kids?  Like we can hire someone to mow the lawn or clean the house.  Sometimes I only want the fun part of being a parent.  Can't we eat at McDonald's three times a day every day and go to bed when we want and have gummies for breakfast?  Is homework really necessary?  Why can't we go on vacation every month?  I know what the answers to all these questions are and because I want my kids to grow up and be productive and happy and my desire for them to be happy is greater than my feelings of tiredness I will press on.  But it doesn't mean I can't dream of spending all day at McDonald's at least once a month.